SOLSTICE LIGHT
Listen, listen, the slow light of solstice morning.
Time shuddering, time standing still.
A word wind muttering indistinct, its rhythms and intent
As steady as oars would be, as steady as oar strokes across a glassy sea.
Listen, listen. We were all in one band, a magnificent number.
Heading west ( always heading west into darkness there, into the mists).
One raised his voice – the song we all knew.
One of those songs whose words would be ridiculous, banal,
Without the tune. Whose chorus impossibly united the living and the lost.
The glass sea slid by. Time ran out.
Some said it was a hard coming of it that year, but it was not.
It was not. It was as easy as breathing.
The reasons, so reasonable. The logic, implacable.
The rhetoric, bombastic and irrefutable.
.
The watchmen were silent, uncommunicative.
Impossible it was to know the minds of the doorkeepers.
We were there to free the imprisoned,
There to reclaim what had been lost,
There to carry home what had been taken.
Voiceless one by one we fell into silence there.
Burning bright as phosphor bombs falling from the air.
Bright as sparks hammered from the anvil.
The prize was claimed, as it always is,
The light released, the cave broken upon,
The tomb unsealed, the spell broken, the curse trod down.
But the world now, irrevocably changed.
Seven with breath, seven with tears still falling,
Seven tired and justified. Seven wan and clustered stars
Backward looking, racing on.
In a world, in a morning, not ours.
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The slim waning moon floating into the stormy dawn,
Losing its light minute by minute. No longer noticed.
Fading into day.
I have cast out on the grass, seeds for the small brown birds,
For the hungry and the cold.
The eagles and the hawks have gone. The songsters silent,
The stately waterbirds, the watching herons forgotten in the fluttering rush.
I shall sing the names, uphold the excuse,
a psalmist counting off lines in a cold cell: the cajoling verses of warrior kings
For fickle vengeful gods, the rosary of blood red beads, the genealogies,
Until the shivering silver-edged awen fails, tumbling into mute silence,
Voiceless watching an unextraordinary morning.
.
If we had not been so strident, so golden,
Could we have passed the doors unscathed?
Had we understood what was asked of us,
Has we not mistaken guileless honesty as elaborate deception,
A trick to catch us out,
Could we be in those halls still feasting?
There with no needs to forget,
no weight of dust and falling radiant starlight upon us.
No need to elaborate the litany of the dead,
Compose harmonious laments, gather together the names,
as if they meant anything any more, as if we remembered
Their bright eyes, their smiles, their warm strong hands,
Their words around the fires.
.
The ashes are cold and must be cleared now.
Reset the hearth. Begin again.
The splash of sweeping oars and the crack of canvas receding.
Our bright futures looking westwards: the new approaching night.
It is not what it could be,
Not what was promised.
But it is what it is.
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