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It flowers with the breath,

Unfurls like a fern on the hill.

A cuckoo thing from somewhere else,

Desiring to belong, to be heard.

A voice rumbling with thunder,

A hiss of rain, a roar of wave,

A keening of curlew.

Nothing new, though,

nothing new can ever be said.

Before the flocks, before the engines,

Before the need to be somewhere else.

Kite and buzzard wheeled high above here.

On their upward soaring voice,

The voice of moving, warmed airs.

With vision open, fixed on hope,

Their hunger to remain.

Insistent is the voice of a silent land,

Holding those who care, to stand still a while to hear.

From the ground, and from beneath that,

It will rise up in its own time.

An uncurling, a reaching thread,

A line of a melody,

A translucent tusk of language.

In the waters, between field and wood;

In the moments, as cloud shades and passes;

Before certainty and after doubt;

A voice weighs and judges its own worth.

The verses shall all bow down, bright-browed.

Prophecy is the love-child of thought.

Lost souls, reborn, eager to take flight again.

The root of my tongue is locked to a syllable of light.

A spark electric, a leap between precipitous cliffs:

The long darkness of being, the long darkness of non-being.

A slim, swaying golden chain

Rising up to eternity,

Sinking to iron-cold oceans.

It shall not cease til it ceases,

Takes breath, and speaks again:

The whispering of rock and stream and soil.

A mother’s voice, never lost.

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UPLANDS (4)

(Where it begins)

It is the mind (is it not?), that weaves the stuttered fragments

Of our own experiencing?

That makes a seamless landscape of sense, a fabricated clarity.

A story with fitting beginning, middle, end.

Hammocked between void and void we taste our own landscapes

In sweet and bitter.

Just so, we see the vast uplands there, rising smooth and even, up to heaven,

And do not feel the weight of mind, do not strain against the uneven road,

Do not catch breath at the long slopes, the impossible tussocked miles,

The scouring winds, the hungry rains.

We hold the truth of dream against the storm of tangled life.

The stories of the heroes, the builders, the survivors.

The steady, solid ones. Not the wrecked bodies, not the broken fingers,

Not the minds locked fast in relentless, ruthless faith.

Not the worn down, gap-toothed, corrugated, rusted.

Not the sightless windows. Not the tumbled walls.

Not the lichen-eaten names on tilted stone,

In ground once holy, now deserted.

Unhomed, we long for the home over there, in that heavenly blue gradient

Where peace must surely lie, a rippling shroud of psalm and skylark.

It sinks down. It all sinks down.

Covered, transformed in secret, wrapped in lightless pools,

Sucked dry by jealous peat.

This is where it begins, where life becomes holy, unnamed,

Ready to flow down into the valleys, green and sheep-scattered.

This is where the mulch is ground into futures,

And futures return to the past, and small things take control

Once and for all.

A gravel rain hits the windows in the valley.

The fire roars, fed with a world’s hungry breath.

We long, still, to be there: in the uplands of clear certainty.

Drained of doubt, stripped clean by simple necessity to go on,

Caressed by the wild that tests our bones:

The truth and freedom of powerlessness.

Doubtful moments gathered, sewn into a fine cloth.

Cloth wrapped around the meaningless distance.

A rainbow view, a bridge between body and void,

Longing, still, always, for both.

These uplands: hard to encompass,

The heart of things. Emptiness sublime.

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If I can only stand still

Then all the competition shall fade away,

The last shall become first,

The first decay, and I shall remain.

If I can only stand still

As all sorrow and joy revolves about me

And blurs to time, and the time to eternity,

To one moment, and then that

To one who remained standing through it all.

If I can only stand still

The words shall come,

The truth and the prophecy

Will seed tremulous,

Hatch worlds

And pass away in wonder.

If I can only stand still

The fools shall stay silent,

The warriors grow tired of their excuses,

The rich find piety, the poor find solace.

If I can only stand still,

Give shelter to the small birds

And to the invisible weathers made of memory.

If I can only stand still,

The small light from the Pole Star,

Threading down my spine,

And only that one axis,

Held and held and finding peace there.

If I can only stand still,

Poised, regardless, rooted,

The vines solar, and the vines lunar

Winding up from my ankles.

Becoming rock, becoming mountain,

Becoming bark, becoming canopy.

If I can only stand still,

Place will become irrelevant,

Past, present, future

Roll up into a breath

And then not even that.

If I can only stand still,

It shall all be bestowed as a virtue,

As a beatitude, as a blessing.

If I can only stand still,

And not be this itching dust,

This hungry fire that must consume,

Consummate and move on, hungry still.

Made of dust and flowers,

Washed upon waves, sand sighed,

Sound sifted, shore-cast and motionless

With the roar of waves,

Unmoved, unrocked.

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CYMRU, IF I NAME THEM

If I name them shall I make them mine,

Those hills that rise and fall in cloudy distances?

Shall I take them into my folded self,

Safe memorised and belonged?

Will they, then, wake enough

To acknowledge this time’s short passage,

Allow a fleeting sun-warmed moment of life

To be counted and valued?

Is there then enough silence in them

To quench the rabble tides of complaint?

Enough sobriety and bliss to dismiss

The well-worn excuses of failure and exile?

We are eagles weeping in the crowns of eternal oaks,

Waiting for the one who made us thus,

To come and set us free, to give us,

One last time, our form and status,

To let us die loved in our own place.

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GIVEN TIME

Given time

All the stones return.

.

Companionship, the soft moss

That greens broken voices.

.

We are accustomed to abandonment

Where roads turn back

Leaving the high hills to themselves.

.

We are accustomed to the tides

Of disdain from those

Who cannot see our wealth.

.

We breathe free in cloud and soft rains,

In the glance of sun,

In the silent press of snow.

.

What we lack

Has been given away freely.

Nothing of worth

Has been lost.

.

From the darkening skies

A single feather falls.

The stones are silent.

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It is not the roads that we have lost

That leave us blinkered and aimless.

It is the songs.

It is not the gold we have given away

That leaves us impoverished and hungry.

It is the songs.

Left silent without even echoes.

The body’s rhythm stuttered,

The heart’s reason stultified.

We have gathered, huddled in silent cities,

Upright, efficient, vague and unmoved.

No tides of song, no roaring winds of song,

No rising hearts, no heat.

Never lost in the making of names.

Never tangled in the fleeting syllables.

No lilt, no catch, no net, no praise.

No meaning that dives deep below meaning

And feeds the spirits of the dead and of other places.

No offered breath, no chant that infuses hours with timelessness.

The electric hum of compliance.

The drone of automatic equilibrium.

White noise of dissolving passion.

Quietly waiting an end to tedious static.

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Take away the words

( that give stories to the silences of doubt)

And there is still the song of the river,

The roaring in the pines,

The light rolling over the ever-changing hills.

Mist rises and the clouds roll past.

There is no need to fill the seconds,

That are already so full of mystery,

With anything other than this.

We are ghosts

Unless we feed on this glory.

We are starved of succour,

Only feeding on our own reasons.

Offer your silence, now and then,

In the early morning, in the dusk.

Now and then, listen

To how eternity sings.

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RISING, RETURNING

Rising through mist and rust and gold.

The rain coming and going and the oaks holding on.

History repeating itself, as it always does,

And the eternal poets weeping and laughing

In their sunlit words.

We shall reach home soon, as we always do,

Until the very last time when time shall slow and stop,

And the oaks, only, will be holding on then

In rust and gold and sunlit drifts.

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WAR HAS CAST THEM

War has cast them off the mountain

And they have never yet returned

Except their tattered ghosts minding flocks

And the wind and the rain and the ravens.

The stone, green under soil.

The soil, black under sedge.

The distance sailing above cloud

Shaped by worlds beyond reach,

Reciting the names, reciting the names.

SOME GO

They weave these times of plague

with threads of brighter days.

Sharing the names of farms and families:

Nain, hen nain, hen hen nain,

and the tales of the tales she told.

The hearths swept and re-laid

for an eventual return

after the storms of the world blow by;

the family bible left open at Lamentations.

Some go into the hills,

finding the silent walls

moss green, wide strewn;

the signs all but lost,

like the songs of living and dying:

the songs of harvest, the songs of planting,

the songs of weaving, the songs of lamenting,

the songs of losing and of finding.

It is the songs of living

that we have lost forever;

the songs of simple doing

that told us we were not alone

in feeling the rhythms of breath

as muscles worked and tasks completed.

It is all silent in the hills now.

cloud and curlew,

raven and lark.

Memories fade

as the farmhouse walls

tumble under moss.

Hold on to the names,

the farms, the families,

the cherished dead.

Over their heads

the world changes.

Plague days,

words dying.

The Epynt is an area of high uplands between the Brecon Beacons and the Cambrian Mountains in Mid Wales. A strong, rural, Welsh speaking area, the Epynt was cleared of people at the start of the Second World War so that the land could become an artillery training area. Eighty farms were given a few months to pack up and leave, breaking and dispersing a robust culture to find their own way miles away from their homes. After eighty years the land is still possessed by the government and this year many descendents have got together to remember their families, where they lived, where they moved, who remembers tales of the old days.

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The Doors of Midsummer

A breath of cloud moves east across Y Garn’s face.

Words are as scarce as swallows in a cold summer.

Anyway, anyway, they only grow from dream to tangled lie,

flowering like the bindweed covering all beneath,

Weighing down, weighing down until nothing else remains.

The doors have opened in every hill,

An invitation to join the dance and summer’s feast.

But we are taught to doubt generosity,

To look for the trap in openness and goodness

(nothing is true that comes so free and easy).

River and clouds are the rulers of this world

and they move on in their own time, unbidden.

Tune to a key that sings of endlessness, even though

no one here knows anything of that song.

For emotion is born from time and loss:

In timeless halls is no such thing.

No such thing but endless dance and bliss.

If the summer never ends

It will be a hard winter, here.

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